We all have it. We don't want it. We wish we could terminate it's existence altogether. If we will all be truly honest with ourselves we know where it hides, takes up residence and clings to the inside of our sub-conscience like a bad fungus in the darkness. It wasn't there when we came into this world. We were all innocent and trusting as no other period in our lives.
When you were on top of the playground slide and Daddy said "come on, Sweetie, I promise I won't let you fall". You never doubted him for an instant and let go altogether. Daddy will catch me, of this I know.
Too bad we all have to grow up, isn't it. Oh, to have stayed in that frame of mind, in that trusting and believing of life without any question.
Fact of life is we all grow up which in itself is a double edge sword. As we grow up a tiny little black seed invades our minds and germinates in the blackest areas of our being. The nastiest seed of all "doubt".
Don't believe me? In our Handbook of Life, the Bible, our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ states emphatically, if we had the faith we should, we could literally move mountains. This could be done on faith and belief alone. Do you know anyone that has moved mountains recently? I didn't think so. We all fall short because of that darn little nasty seed. We are not totally in Faith, Trust and Belief.
In one of the Star Wars movies, as Yoda was levitating out of the dark goo of the swamp, the x-wing fighter, Luke has crashed. Luke exclaimed "I don't believe it". Yoda replied "That is why you fail". Ironic how a sci-fi movie can have such religious undertones.
We have to work on faith, work on trust and work on believing to get back to the innocence of youth. We are given the gift of free will but not given it just to sit on our thumbs. We can work enough to put this little seed to flames and be rid of it once and for all.
I fight with this little seed every day of my life, but I'm not going to let it win. I can't, my real life to come depends on putting doubt to death. Please don't give up on us, Lord. We're all trying